All about my babes

Learning to love thyself!

2012-01-17T07:59:00.002-05:00

I have spent my whole life trying to love myself and teaching myself to love me and it was always a difficult struggle.
My mind was tormented by self doubt and self hatred despite my best efforts.
Having had children has been a blessing in many aspects but most unexpectedly it has taught me love and gratitude for myself and my body.
I have learned many things through out my journey but learning to love myself as I am without all the fancy bells and whistles has been one of the greatest gifts.
I have learned how compassionate and kind and Caring I am,
I have found strength and courage I never knew that I was capable of.
I have seen a nurturing side and an assertive side.
I have seen a protective side and soft side.
I have also seen my body in a way I have never been able to appreciate before.
I have seen feet that have bared the load of a pregnnt belly and a growing baby.
I have seen a stomach that has housed and grown my two loves.
I have seen my breasts that have fed these 2 babies till they were ready to eat solids.
I have seen my arms carry these 2 babes together and a bag of groceries.
I can now look at my body; worth so much more then I ever gave it credit for and I can finally say I love myself totally, completely and unconditionally.

Things to teach my daughter

2012-01-12T12:51:00.001-05:00

I found this online somewhere and thought it was definitely appropriate and humourous!

Rules for Parents of Daughters
I realized when I wrote my sons' piece earlier this week I titled it Rules for Mothers of Sons. I was so wrong to just single out mothers. These rules are for all parents. Sorry, dads, you don't get a pass. Kids need as much guidance as they can get!

Tonight I went out with the girls and I told them I was going to write this post so they helped me come up with some good ones! Thanks, girls!

So here we go: PIWTPITT 25 Rules for Parents of Daughters (because as I was making this list it seemed to me that I can screw up my daughter easier than my son so I needed more rules):

1. Teach your daughter to never allow herself to be anyone's property and that you will disown her if she ever wears shorts that claim otherwise.

I would kick "Mike's Bitch" in her ass if she walked in my door.

2. Teach your daughter to talk about her feelings - not eat them or purge them. Or if she doesn't want to talk, teach her to express her feelings through writing, art, music, sports, etc. Anything but food.

3. Teach your daughter to work with what she's got and love what she's got. Tall, short, fat, thin, your daughter is beautiful - inside and out. Make sure you tell her all the time and make sure she believes it.

4. Teach your daughter to like and respect herself and demand respect from those around her. She might end up lonely at times, but at least she won't be a doormat.

5. Teach your daughter that "fish lips" photos are never appropriate and never attractive.

6. Teach your daughter to value herself enough to defend herself - physically and verbally. Let your daughter watch "The Burning Bed." She'll never forget it and she'll always know she has "options" if she finds herself in an abusive relationship.

7. Teach your daughter to go easy on the plastic surgery.

Aging gracefully can't be worse than this hot mess.

8. Teach your daughter to be strong and confident in her abilities and not be afraid of failure. Teach her that sometimes she will fail, but she can't let that fear stop her from trying something.

9. Teach your daughter that has the right to get loud. Make sure she knows girls can get angry, they can have opinions and they can throw "lady like" behavior out the window if necessary.

10. Teach your daughter to never text/email/snail mail naked photos of herself to anyone. Ever. Ever. Ever.

11. Teach your daughter what a douche canoe is so she can avoid them.

12. Teach your daughter to never steal her best friend's boyfriend. That's just a real skank move. What is it that our mothers always told us? "Boys come and go, but girlfriends are forever." Still true.

13. Teach your daughter that having her underwear and half her ass hanging out the back of her jeans is not attracting anyone substantial nor does it make her look smart - even in the library.

14. Never let your daughter wear clothing with sexually inappropriate "cutesy" sayings.

"Hooters Girl in Training" is not adorable, it's so fucked up - and you know this little girl did not even pick this shirt.

15. Teach your daughter that smart girls get further in life than slutty girls.

16. Teach your daughter to walk away from the teen magazines. There is so much pressure put on young girls these days to look pretty or hot it's nauseating.

859 Ways to Get Pretty for Summer and Look Hot in a Bikini?? Really? How about 859 Tips to Ace the SATs! or 100 Books We Love! or 252 Ways to Succeed in Life Without Using Your Boobs! ??

17. Don't let your 9 year old dancer look like a 25 year Pussycat Doll.

18. Teach your daughter that bigger boobs isn't necessarily a good thing.

19. Don't let your daughter marry young. Encourage her to get out and see the world, live on her own and figure out who she is and what she wants in a partner before she settles down.

20. Teach your daughter that there's nothing wrong with staying home on a Friday night and reading a good book, but try to get her to read more than just Chick Lit. Give her The Gift of Fear. This book really empowers women to spot danger signals. Unfortunately in the world we live in, this is an important gift to have.

21. Teach your daughter to beat the boys at their own games.

22. Teach your daughter to be able to laugh at herself and have a sense of humor. There are so many women I meet that say they have a sense of humor, but they really don't.

23. Teach your daughter that the "Queen Bees" and "Wanna Bees" and "mean girls" are a waste of time and she should just invest in one or two great friends.

24. Don't allow her to pierce or tattoo her body until she's on her own.

25. Teach your daughter that her choices in life are limitless. She really can do anything - except maybe use the Men's Restroom.

I know there are more, so let's hear them!

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2011 in Review!

2012-01-06T08:05:00.018-05:00

The year took of last year with a whirlwind of fun, I made sure to plan parties and trips for us to keep us entertained till trailer season. There was also lots of sadness and grief at the beginning of 2011. We lost 2 very special people in both of our families almost back to back. We lost aunt Lou in January and Nonno in March. We love you and miss you both!!!
Febuary
Daddy and I took a trip to Calabogie for the weekend with some couple friends. We had such a good time, maxing, relaxing and having fun!

March
We took the kids to Dominican, we had such a good time filled with sun, sand and so much fun! The kids asked for 4 months after when we were going back to the beach!

April
Once April comes we are into the spring celebration, between both Brycen and Brooklyn's Birthdays and party planning and opening season at the trailer which is filled with lots of spring cleaning and getting ready to camp!
We welcomed April with Brycen's 2nd birthday

May
We said happy 4th birthday to my big baby! We had a princess themed party and Cinderella made a grande appearance. Sadly I have no pictures handy as they are all on the hard drive.
We also opened up the trailer and welcomed a new trailer season...woo hoo!!

June
Brooklyn graduated from Nursery school, we filled our days with playing in the sprinkler, park hopping and enjoying the sunshine!

July
My favorite month of the whole year, the weather was awesome, my 2 weeks holidays happen and we just live so well with the heat and the sun. We spent most of July at the trailer and we spent all my holidays there entirely. @ weeks at the trailer was awesome, fresh air and freedom!!

August
Summer winds down, Brooklyn rides a horse for the first time! YAY Baby girl! We prepare for Brooklyn's

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September
What a milestone month...my baby girl goes to school. I shipped her off that morning by bus, waved good bye and cried my eyes out at how fast time flies. She is growing up so fast and is becoming such a wonderful little girl!
We also bought trailer a big one. We love that we are trailer people we love the life of it and now we have a space were we fit and we can cook and relax with comfort and ease!!! I am so excited for trailer season 2012!!!!

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October
Trailer is closed down for the season and pulled out and traded in, the weather is "suppose" to be getting cooler, we have apple picked, pumpkin picked and had a beautiful thanksgiving dinner with both families, we also had a repeat princess and an elephant for Halloween!

Christmas Favorites

2011-12-31T14:32:00.007-05:00

Christmas was a whirlwind of fun, excitement, food and family. There was many late nights, many exciting surprises and lots of love. There was also some sadness as this was the first Christmas without Nonno and Aunt Lou with us in the physical form. It was hard without both of them but I know they were with us in spirit.

An afternoon spent watching princess'

2011-12-21T11:17:00.004-05:00

There was laughter, tears and lots of fun to be had! Thanks Nanna!!!

Our new addition!

2011-12-07T10:13:00.002-05:00

His name is Maverick and the kids love him!!!! He is spunky and cuddly, sweet and fun!

The Great Christmas Tree Hunt 2011

2011-12-06T21:36:00.002-05:00

A SUCCESS!!!

I'm a big boy now!!!!

2011-12-06T21:25:00.003-05:00

My boy is growing up right before my eyes....
Every day he gets a little taller, brighter and bigger and I tend to miss those very small yet significant milestones as they are so gradual but I am not oblivious to the milestones that have turned my baby into a big boy almost overnight.
He is sleeping in a big boy bed now and is fully potty trained. You were as easy as your sister to train...I never would of dreamed that I could potty train 2 kids with such effort and ease...I know I know it is your hardwork and ability.I wont steal your thunder Brooklyn and Brycen! Mommy loves you both and I coulddnt be more proud at all your accomplishments! xoxoxoxo

Fall 2011

2011-12-06T20:58:00.003-05:00

Enjoying the simple things in life

2011-12-02T20:23:00.004-05:00

Today we took a sick day as Brycen was sick last night with the stomach flu and Brooklyn woke up with it.
Luckily it was short lived and it just kept the kids lethargic enough to veg on the couch all day eating snacks and watching movies.
It was a nice quiet kinda day...for being a sick day!

"Perfectly ordinary" days!

2011-11-30T13:14:00.000-05:00

Sp often I complain of the mononetity of my life from the routine of pack lunches, get dressed, brush teeth, prepare meals, cleanup, dishes, laundry, bathes, bed time routines. So often I find it hard to see the beauty in all this boredom and take for granted the kisses, the snuggles, the love for life my 2 little monkey's have.

Take a minute (or 7) and watch this video.....May I never complain again about tangles in unruly hair, or the Barbies/toys and playdough scattered all over the floors. I hope I can cherish the dirty hand prints on my walls and muddy shoes brought through my house instead of getting angry. More importantly, I hope I can see the beauty and the memories in the "perfectly ordinary" days.

Tis the season...again!

2011-11-30T11:55:00.005-05:00

I gotta say I remember when I was younger and I use to use the phrase time flies when your having fun...but truthfully until you have kids, a job, a home ect ect ect...life flies by!

So here we are the Christmas season is in full swing and I am still in shock that once again December is just about to reer it's head!

Life around here is good, Brooklyn is loving school and has become a champ at printing her name and she has learned to sing Oh Canada in both French and English. They are learning there numbers and have been teaching the little ones to do the same!
Brycen is good, we will be working on potty training next week and wish me luck he is a stubborn little fart! He too is advancing thanks to his sister and the other school girls.

Jeff and I are good too we have gotten use to this life with kids stuff and we seem to work well as a team.

Dearest Nonno

2011-11-19T08:59:00.002-05:00

Not a day goes by when you don't cross my mind with either a memory or a reminder of all that we have lost. What gets us through is the reminder that you have gone to a better place and your body is no longer suffering. I wish so many times I could see you, hug you, call you just one more time. I hold my memories of you so very close to my heart and I pull them up to the forefront of my mind when I really feel you are far away.
I miss you Nonno!
I miss your laugh, your insights, your presence.....

Time flies!

2011-10-07T23:14:00.004-04:00

and it really does!
My babies are growing up so fast. For the first time in a long time I looked back at all these posts and I could actually witness how much you 2 have grown! You are both growing into yourselves! I am so blessed to have each of you.
You are such good friends and you love each other dearly. I always knew I wanted 2 and I tell you there is nothing more precious and special then the love between siblings. I hope you to never lose the bond you have and that it strengths with age.
I dont post as often anymore because well life is busy.
Brooklyn;s days are filed with school where she comes home daily with new songs to teach us both in french and English. Your memory is impressive to say the least. You have mellowed out in the past few months and become a wonderful help to mommy. You definitly still have your freak out drama moments "I want an IPOD Mommy?" I dont want to wear those shoes, shirt, pants, hair elastic....but all in all you are quite a treat to have around. I love you girl!!
Brycen Brycen Brycen, your days are filled with scaring the living poop out of me. You are gutsy and fearless, you love to climb the highest thing you can find and jump off it. You love tools, swords and guns (I dont know why) You are a boy through and through!
You gave me a heart attack yesterday as you ran through the kitchen full tilt and smashed your head open on the wooden kitchen table chair. Yes this required an emerg trip and 4 stitches. You were so brave and have not complained once. Did it slow you down any? NO Has it made you any more careful? ABSOLUTELY NOT! Boy you are crazy and lovely all together but man I have a funny feeling we will be spending a few more hours down in ER! I love you boy and we just weren't complete without you!

First day of school!!!

2011-09-14T15:01:00.003-04:00

Today I put my baby onto the school bus and waved her goodbye. I was filled with numerous emotions only a parent who has done such a thing can understand. I was proud at how well she handled the whole thing, I was excited for all the possibilities to come for her but I was also sad to see how quickly the past 4 years have gone by.
I remember crying as I looked at my precious bundle of pink as I held her for the first time.
I remember crying when she turned one as I looked at my baby girl digging into her first piece of cake.
I remember crying the first time she took a step and the first time I heard her say I lo you!
So many wonderful milestones in my baby girls life that we have had the pleasure to celebrate. I look forward from bittersweet eyes as I watch you grow up and become a brave and adventurous little girl.

Our summer in a nutshell!

2011-08-09T19:24:00.003-04:00

So life has been busy with the trailer and work and just general life stuff. Here is just a bit of what we have been up too!

School's out for summer...

2011-06-29T18:33:00.002-04:00

School's out forever! Ok well not quite, both of you have many more days of your school career ahead of you, however Brooklyn graduated from nursery school this week and is now ready for JK.
I have a lovely photo of Brooklyn receiving her diploma but sadly it is on my phone and I am not savvy enough to know how to upload here yet.

Anyhow...school's out for SuMmEr!!!

2011-06-15T12:38:00.003-04:00

My promise to my children ~ I am your parent, I will stalk you, flip out on you, lecture you, drive you insane, be your worst nightmare & hunt you down like a bloodhound when needed because I LOVE YOU! When you understand that, I will know you are a responsible adult. You will NEVER find someone who loves, swears, cares and worries about you more than I do!

On growing up!!

2011-06-15T07:50:00.002-04:00

I Remember when boys had cooties...when friends were new, dreams were un-shattered and worries few...when recess was too short and life was too long...decisions came easily without need to belong...when storks delivered babies and passions weren't so strong...friendships were un-broken...right was right, and wrong was wrong...when bad things didn't happen...when only skinned knees brought tears and the night light in it's socket quieted all our fears...when farewell meant just for summer and real friends didn't part...the fun went on forever and never left a broken heart.

For so many years I thought I was immune to aging and growing up. Responsibility didn't involve nearly the same stuff it involves now. I remember when I only had myself to deal with and how much work that was on a good day. I see lines on my forehead that where never there in my 20's I see laugh lines and crows feet that have creeped up and I have plucked a gray hair or 2. As much as I wish I could deny the inevitable I am growing up and getting older. Life is happening all the while I was busy making plans. You only realize how fast life goes by when you have a life to look back on.

As we grow up, we learn that we may fall but we can always get back up. Hearts will be broken but it will always love again. So many people will come and go but the true friends will be there forever. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you lose someone you love. It will hurt like hell but you will never regret knowing them because the memories make up for the pain. Take too many pictures so you can reminise, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back.

A Birthday fit for a PRINCESS!

2011-05-25T08:21:00.004-04:00

Some pics of what we have been up too lately!

2011-05-18T13:59:00.002-04:00

My Little Girl!!

2011-05-13T13:39:00.005-04:00

You are my sweet little angel and I cannot believe that today you are 4! Where has the time gone? I remember the day you were born like it was yesterday and I remember all the other birthdays in between just as well. The day you were born was the day my life changed forever. You have brought us so much happiness, joy and love and we are so thankful to have you in our lives!

At 4
You are a total diva, you love dresses and high heeled shoes, purses and make up!
You have been begging me for an Ipod and a Justin Beiber poster since you were 2.5 years old.
You are bright and inquisitive...you ask daily if you can do your homework.
You are shy for 10 minutes in unfamiliar territory but warm up quickly and then you are bubbly, friendly, happy and love to chat.
You are very independent (almost to a fault) and you are tenacious. You have determination that is impressive, for being so dainty you sure don't let that get in your way.
You love to be outside, swinging and singing. You love to dance and you have great rhythm.
You are nurturing and caring and you are a great big sister,
Your favorite foods are pesgetti and ice cream. You love anything sweet!
Next September you start school....I cant believe you start school soon!

Happy Birthday Brooklyn, mommy and daddy love you!!!

Sibling Rivalry!

2011-05-06T07:23:00.005-04:00

So it begins! My 2 babes use to be such buddies always so sweet and protective of each other, willing and able to play with each other for hours and all around good buddies.

Then Brycen turned 2. As the terrible 2's hit Brycen was far less patient to going along with his sister, he is far less tolerant to her wanting to play babies with him or treat him like a baby. Now it seems all day long I listen to the 2 of them squabble and bicker and from time to time I need to play referee from a brawl. Oh man I guess it was to good to be true that they would be budding buddies for years and years to come. This is all bringing me back to my own brother and our own sibling rivalry and the annoyance we must of put our parents through as they preached that we are siblings we need to treat each other nicely. I have really noticed a trent in parenthood, it really is karma over and over again!

Needs improvement

2011-04-30T12:59:00.002-04:00

As a mother I have always taken my job very seriously. I believing in raising children to be responsible, kind, caring, and all around decent adults one day.
Their virtue and character is very important to me and I enjoy shaping and having a hand in creating these little people of mine!

I must admit though it isnt always simple or easy;
I lose my patience more then I would like too.
I worry far too much about things I can not control.
Sometimes I am too firm on the small issue and other times to lax on the b
My kids like treats and have them more often then I had ever imagined.
Motherhood is truly harder then I imagined...I thought a few sleepless nights was the extent of it! I WAS SADLY MISTAKEN

There you have it folks the cat is out of the bag!

My Little Man!

2011-04-11T19:40:00.007-04:00

So precious and sweet

At 1 you were so happy and playful!

At 2 you are a stinker and so much fun!
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Where has the time gone, when did you go from being the wee little newborn baby to this big busy boy!

Now that you are 2

*You are talking up a storm these days and you are so very funny.
*You love your sister and want to be just like her. *It is so precious*
*You love to eat and especially veggies (brocoli and carrots are your faves)and cheese!
*Still dislikes milk!
*Loves to read books and play with balls and cars
*Fascinated with boy things like tools, big trucks and diggers
*Still a momma's boy
* At 2 I still haven't had a full nights sleep thanks to you ;)
*You are a wonderful little brother and a beautiful addition to our family!!

The nitty gritty on our sleep

2011-04-04T20:09:00.004-04:00

or lack of it! We are back to trying to establish a healthy sleep routine as Jeff on the couch and 2 kids in bed with me is becoming draining on all of us, including the kids as Brycen wakes up screaming about 3 times a night.

Needless to say it is a battle. Jeff has been trying the ferber method with him as I truly am too soft hearted to do it. I just cant bare it so daddy has left to play tough guy. It is getting better, Brycen is putting himself to sleep but he still wakes up a bunch of times and always ends up in my bed with Brooklyn and I.

Sometimes I beat myself up as I listen to the advice that what I am doing is no good for any of us. Sometimes I can justify it in my mind that I am doing what works so we get some sleep and other times I look into the future and think of what it will be like when they are 16 and 18 years old. They will be teenagers no longer in my bed and probably barely at home as friends are usually the priority. I stop to think of Jeff and I thinking back to these days thinking Remember when....
In the meantime I guess all we can do is keep trying and remembering that really in a few years this really wont matter anyways!

Today we laid you down to rest!

2011-03-24T20:11:00.005-04:00

The church was filled with love for you from family and friends today Nonno. You would of been so happy to see all our relatives again. We can all agree it is so nice to see them again because it brings such happiness and so much laughter. You should of seen Nonna with Aunt Rosie Nonno. They were so cute, like little girl sister's, holding hands and giggling. I'm glad Nonna has such great people in her life to help support her in this time. It's going to be tough on all of us as you were so pivotal.You did good Nonno, you gave your family a great life, with great opportunities.Your life really was special and it shows through all of us that you have left behind. I gotta tell you Nonno those sons of yours are something special. I was so proud of them both the way they never left your side at the hospital and the way they look after their mom. You dont see that real often anymore and I tell you their love for you and Nonna is sure admirable. You and Nonna did a great job instilling strong family values in all of us but it sure shone through when things in life got tough.
It's going to take some time to get use to you not being around the table and at all these family functions. Today I remembered how you always looked at me and made this sound with you cheek kinda like "are you good?" gesture.Im going to miss your presence Nonno. I hope you know you meant the world to me, even if I wasnt around as often as I could or should of been. I was talking to Brycen about his birthday and he was going through everyone who would be there and he asked about you. I know you'll be there in spirit Nonno, I have felt you alot since you passed. Stay close Nonno, I keep telling the kids they have a real special Nonno angel now!
I LOVE YOU NONNO!

I have attached my eulogy Nonno just so I never forget it!

Domenico Ricciuto
April 7th 1924 - March 18th 2011
Henry James once said, Sorrow comes in great waves…but it rolls over us, and though it may almost smother us it leaves us on the spot and we know that if it is strong we are stronger in as much as it passes and we remain.

My Nonno never liked to be the center of attention. If he were here with us now, he would want us to take the focus off him and put it on us. He would not want us to focus on the sadness of his death, but instead look at the happiness we still have in our lives. He would want us to look at each other and appreciate what we have together and what we hope to make better.

I have much consolation in the good feelings my memories give me. I remember when I was a little girl, having sleepovers at Nonna and Nonno’s house. We used to play scopa and war, we would play outside in the back yard, smell the flowers and pick fruit off the trees that he had grown. We used to feast on salami and ice cream late at night.
I remember walks to Zellers to buy slowpokes and willowcrisps and trips to the farm to show us all the bunnies which later on would became dinner.

I remember every holiday season and family dinner, Nonno was always the one telling us to “mange mange” and to drink more vino. We would fill our bellies and listen to his wonderful stories of the olden days. He always made sure we left stuffed and he always reminded us we were always welcome to come over and to never become a stranger.

Nonno always loved having kids near by, he was always so happy when we were around and that made us feel good inside. I can see that my dad got his fun loving spirit from Nonno. He was a great teacher to have, not only for my dad and us, but also for everybody. He was selfless and kind. He loved being a parent and grandparent and he was so good at it as it came so natural to him.
When I had my own kids he always loved to play with them. He use to always tell me how much he looked forward to walking with both of them, holding their hand in his and walking side by side. Both my kids were fortunate enough to be able to do that with him. Nonno’s laugh was infectious, he always had a light heart and a smile in his eyes. He had a lust for life that was admirable to anyone who knew him.

Nonno I will miss your laughter and your carefree way about you. I will miss you at the cottage and at the dinner table to remind us we can always pack back more food.

You were a wonderful role model in my life and a the best nonno I could ever have asked for.

One day we will see you again and be sure to leave a seat at the grand ole poker table you are sitting at for us. In the meantime the memories we have made will stay etched in our hearts and fresh in our minds forever.

Till we meet again Nonno

RIP NONNO

2011-03-19T18:22:00.004-04:00

It broke our hearts to lose you,
but you never went alone,
for a part of us went with you,
the day god took you home.

A million times we missed you,
A million times we cried,
If love could have saved you,
you never would have died.

To the grave you travel,
Our flowers placed with care,
No-one knows the heartache,
as we turn to leave you there.

If tears could build a stairway,
and memories could make a lane,
we would walk right up to heaven,
and bring you home again.

We love you Nonno,
sleep well in heaven with the angels.

Dominican with the Fam!

2011-03-17T16:44:00.003-04:00

We had a blast, fun in the sun! We played in the water, in the sand, in the ocean in the pools. It was so great to connect with our family!!

An ode to my grandparents!

2011-02-21T11:56:00.004-05:00

Definition of Grandparents: Grandparents are the father or mother of a person's own father and/or mother.

Nonna and Nonno you have always been a very pivotal part of my life and have been etched into my heart and soul. You have been their for all the highlights of my life as well as just the day to day as well. My memories of my Nonna sweet, I will always remember home cooked meals, a beautiful laugh a soft heart yet a hard working woman who is strong. You have taught me the value of a family meal together, how easy life can be when it is simple and that any woman can be as strong as any man.
My memories include, late night icecream treats and salami, bread and gnochi making and crawling into bed with you at sleep overs. Time has kept you strong, you are an amazing woman, one I can only hope to be half as good as one day.

Nonno, you have always been so happy go lucky, a man that has walked the world, fought in wars and worked hard with his hands in the fields, on the farm and in the garden. I will forever remember those walks to Zellers, coming to work at Frank Ryan with you and your laugh. No matter what time takes from you my memories will always be of you laughing, telling stories and being such a fighter. You came to Canada with nothing, you worked your way up to provide for your family and to give my dad the life he had.

I love you so much and could never imagine my life without both of you in it. You are everything a Nonno and Nonna should be and for this I am forever grateful and blessed. God gave me you and has given me you for so long. I have been able to have you here for my childhood, my wedding, and to get to enjoy my own children. We both are so blessed to be given this special time and every day I am so very grateful to know you both. I am so proud of you guys, you have lived long, prosperous, happy lives with memories that can fill the world. I love you so much Nonna and Nonno, my heart always holds a special special place that only a grandchild can know of.
"One day the Lord will take you away but in my heart you will always stay!"

A Grandparent's Love
© Tina Williams
It seems like only yesterday
Our lives were just beginning.
Your love for us never failed,
Our hearts continually mending.

It is strange to watch the time fly
Before our very eyes,
Which reminds me of the blessing,
That we have you in our lives.

To have yet to feel the touch
That's as gentle as your hand
The closeness of our family
One could never understand.

As each of our lives
Continue to change,
Reflections of your love
In each of us remains.

You have pointed out the path
And led us along the way;
The wisdom you have planted,
We each still hold today.

You sheltered us through childhood
And saw us through today,
Taught us of the Lord above,
About faith, and how to pray.

One day we'll all be in heaven
Dancing on the throne,
Praising God for giving us
A family like we've never known.

No matter where our lives may go,
We will trust the Lord above
And through it all always thank him for our grandparents love.

WHEN CHILDREN ARE AT THEIR WORST!

2011-02-08T16:49:00.002-05:00

You need to be at your best.

You need to set the tone. Quietly.

You need to calm down.

You need to use your hands gently to help.

You need to approach your child in a true manner that shows you actually want to help them.

You need to be able to pass this duty to someone else in your family if you cannot do it right this minute. This does not mean you have failed, it means you are human.

You need to still be able to love your child, even if you don’t like them this minute.

You need to know this too shall pass.

You need to know life is full of these moments.

You need to know there is no perfect peaceful house.

You need to know that your child is not doing this on purpose.

You need to know your child loves you and wants to connect with you more than anything.

You need to know you are doing your best.

Many blessings today and every day,

MOM

2011-01-29T14:00:00.003-05:00

What it means to be a mom!
She can deal with stress and carry heavy burdens.

She smiles when she feels like screaming, and she sings when she feels
like crying.

She cries when she's happy and laughs when she's afraid.

Her love is unconditional.

There's only one thing wrong with her.

She forgets what she's worth!

105 more days till trailer days!

2011-01-25T08:38:00.001-05:00

Devising the future plan!

2011-01-22T09:37:00.006-05:00

So as adults and parents Jeff and I have been devising our plan for the future and so far our plan includes...

*Spending 2-3 more years in our town house, then selling it.
*Buying a brand new home in within Barrhaven
*Me getting a job outside of the home hopefully something within Health Canada or the Government where I can get benefits and a pension.
*Living in our new house then selling and moving to another brand new house in hopefully the Barrhaven area (this may or may not mean the kids can stay at S.E.A.S)
*Then once the kidlets are in college or moved out we will downgrade ourselves and sit on a nice comfy goose egg....

A plan is a great way to ensure we aren't just flying by the seat of our pants!!

PrImA BaLleRiNa

2011-01-15T13:27:00.002-05:00

The world loses an angel

2011-01-10T16:16:00.003-05:00

On January 8th 2011 Aunt Lou passed away. This was Jeff's aunt and a very pivotal influence in his life as a child. She died of a massive heart attack and was taken far too soon. She will be missed and prayers are going out to everyone she has left behind.
I didnt know Aunt Lou for long, nor did we see her often but something I will always remember and will miss was her laughter she was so light hearted and jovial. She also had a heart of gold and was an amazing aunt, mother, grandmother, wife and sister.

RIP AUNT LOU YOU WILL BE MISSED!

Another year filled with possibility!

2011-01-02T18:56:00.002-05:00

Tis the time of year filled with so much hope and dreams to come true! The time where anything is possible and fresh starts are awaiting!

We will open the book. Its pages are blank. We are going to put words on them ourselves. The book is called Opportunity and its first chapter is New Year's Day. ~Edith Lovejoy Pierce

This year I hope to continue with the healthy lifestyle and social life resolutions we made last year however I also resolve to bring in more spiritual awareness, more fun and laughs and more time to myself. Now that the kids are getting a little bigger I hope to find myself again. Figure out what I like to do and take on a new hobby and redefine me as a 30 year old mother. It is time to find out who I am again, because I realize that I am no longer the 20ish year old I use to be and know and from time to time I realize I need to reinvent who I am now! I have accepted my titles as wife, mother and child care provider however I have lost sight of what brings me joy when I am not wearing one of those hats. Cheers to this being the first of a redesigning of me!

Cheers!!

Some more Christmas faves!

2011-01-02T09:59:00.003-05:00

2010 in Review!

2011-01-01T09:03:00.014-05:00

January- turns out to be a month of sibling bonding, once Brycen became more mobile, Brooklyn took a liking to him. He becomes a playmate not just a baby.

Febuary- Cohen joins our daycare full time and he is an excellent little buddy. He has been one of my favorite daycare kids ever!

March- Our traditional early spring tradition to Stanley's was a hit. We went with Ben and Christine, Josh and Amanda and all the kids. We had our traditional pancake breaky and had maple syrup snow on a stick. The kids also contracted rotavirus and were very very sick for 8 days after that. Both kids ended up at the hospital needing an anti nauseau drug and rehydration. Very Very scary!

April- Brycen turns 1, he had a car cake and a big family birthday in Lisa's backyard. By the way he started walking by 11 months and he had 3 teeth by his first bday.

May- Brooklyn turns 3 and she had a daycare birthday party and a family party which was at Andrew Hayden Park, Oh and she special requested a caillou cake.

June- We are in the throws of summer fun with lots of water play, nature walks and park play. everything is better in the summer.

July- Jeff and Lisa threw me a surprise 30th birthday party and a surprise it was. It was the perfect 30th birthday filled with the perfect balance of New and old friends which was perfect for my 30th which was a bittersweet year as I always say I remember when 30 was old. On a side note Jeff got a job with L W Bray construction. It is a full time position with a stable income. Things are definitely looking up!
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August- We spent are summer living the trailer life, we spent our days chasing the kids through the dirt and our nights sitting by a fire usually with booze and good friends. It was one of the best summers we have had in a long time.

September- My little bro and his beautiful fiance tie the knot. I couldn't be more happy for him, nor pick a better wife for my bro. Welcome to the fam Giulia, we wish you both a lifetime of love and laughter together. xoxox

October- The month was spent with halloween prep from crafts, baking and decorating. The kids had a blast at our Halloween party and we had a blast at the adult Halloween party that Lisa through. I just want to add this Halloween we had a white Halloween. The snow was perfect and fluffy and their was plenty of it. Needless to say we werent so lucky at Christmas..all though it was a white Christmas there was no fresh falling snow!

November- We spent the entire month trying to get Brycen to sleep in his bed, sleep through the night and wean him...we were so unsuccesful in all areas. Needless to say our New Years Resolution for 2011 is to wean him and have them both sleeping in there own beds...good thing we have a year to work on this!

December- The month was filled with Christmas prep and traditions. We even started a few new traditions that we are sure to keep up (caroling) Christmas went off without a hitch, the kids were perfect, the company was awesome and we all were spoiled with love, laughter and everything we can hope and dream for.

All in all it was a great year for us. Hoping 2011 is just as good or Better!

To end off the 2010!

2010-12-30T12:02:00.004-05:00

I took a look back at all the hopes and plans I had wanted for our lives in the New Year for 2010 and most of it was centered around getting healthy and getting a life. Good news is 2010 brought a healthier and happier us!
I will continue to eat healthy and to workout as well as keep up with the social life. The trailer we bought in the summer was a great start to a social life and we enjoyed it all emmencely. We will continue to trailer in the summer months and in the off season we have filled our weekends with karaoke and small get togethers at the house. It has been great fun and good times. 2010 was the start of good times with good friends. Cant wait to see what 2011 has in store for us.

Some Christmas Faves

2010-12-30T11:52:00.002-05:00

This year I totally forgot to pull out the camera, so my pics are all taken from those that remembered. Thank you Lindsay! :)We had a fantastic Christmas, the kids have been dolls handling all the late nights and parties like angels. It was a good one I must say but I am sure glad Christmas only comes once a year!

An eye opening experience

2010-12-23T08:58:00.002-05:00

This year we (our family and Lisa's) decided we would sponsor a large family and put together a hamper for a family in need. We wanted our children to learn about giving and also to be grateful for what they do have.
We took all the kids out shopping to buy for the hamper, they gave input on foods that reminded them of Christmas and ideas for small gifts for each child.
We all loaded up upon delivery date to spread our good cheer and generosity to our family.
Firstly we were greeted by the 12 year old son, he tried to get his older siblings who were watching him to come to the door but I quote "they are to lazy to get up."
We brought our boxes in and left them in the kitchen. No one said thank you, no one bothered to greet us at the door, truth be told it was a huge eye opener.
Our children went away grateful that their life circumstances are no where near in comparison and us adults went away feeling very grateful that as parents we care enough about our kids to do everything in our power to love, protect and provide.

Today I lost a little piece of hope for humanity, how can people that ask and receive help be so inconsiderate that they cant even say thank you. It was a horrible experience it took me the entire day to shake the feeling of disgust, discouragement and fear that this world and humanity is going to hell in a hand basket.I wish this story had a happy ending but truth be told today I saw just a small piece of what some peoples life's are like and what innocent children are born into.
I suppose on the flip side I am grateful and get to experience a new appreciation for what I have and what I can provide for my children. I suppose I can say that I am lucky that up until now I have never been so up close and personal to what some people call their life and secondly I am so grateful that I am not raising my children in such an unloving, unconscious way.
It really was heartbreaking to think that their is a boy Brooklyn's age who lives in that house that smells of stale smoke and void of any feelings of love and care and he is being raised by absent parents and siblings "that are too lazy"! That is what is really tragic. I spent the whole day feeling so down that our gift and hard work went completely unappreciated but now I am grateful and compassionate to the fact that these people are in need of a bigger gift....or miracle. Tonight I will say a special prayer for that little boy and pray that he can grow up and get out of that pattern. I will also say a prayer of thanks that my life nor my children's life will never be like that.
Merry Christmas World!

Child Like Innocence

2010-12-15T15:45:00.004-05:00

Well the best Christmas is upon us! Brooklyn is so excited, the kind of excited only a 3 year old can have. It is so special. We have been working on all our traditions, like the tree hunt, baking, decking the halls (as Brooklyn calls it) Letters to Santa, ect ect ect
I love this year and wish that this child like innocence and excitement could last forever and ever!

Even us adults have a little fun sometimes!

2010-12-13T17:08:00.002-05:00

Couples Christmas Cookie Exchange Party of 2010, we had a blast, it was a huge sucess and hopefully a tradition!

Breaky with Santa!

2010-12-08T18:54:00.001-05:00

A blast from the past!

2010-11-26T17:31:00.003-05:00

This was me when I was 12 at Danika and Natalie's 1st Birthday party!

Christmas is coming!!

2010-11-20T23:24:00.002-05:00

and we are excited! All the fun festivities we have planned.
Decorating the house, the tree, the crafts, all the parades, making our letters to Santa, cutting down the tree. There is so much magnificance and magic at Christmas and I know it is important to not forget the meaning of Christ and to teach our children it is not about the gifts but in all honesty there is so much magic to be felt and I love every stinking minute up to Christmas. Here is to a month of fun and a seak peak of the cutest little reindeer around!!

We tried... we failed!!!

2010-11-07T09:37:00.002-05:00

Well Brycen is a little over 18 months now and he still is a really crappy sleeper. A typical night with my boy goes like this. Bed between 7:30 and 8pm. Wake up anywhere between 11 and 1. Back in his bed till next wake up between 1 and 2:30am when he is brought into my bed because I can sit there or hours and he will wake every time I leave his room. In bed with me and he still wakes every 1.5-3 hours. Finally up between 6 and 7am for the day. Needless to say 18+ months has been nothing short of exhausting.

So after a frustrating night I decided I would try anything to get him to a) go to sleep on his own without nursing 2)stay in his own bed all night 3)sleep ll night.

We tried for 1.5 weeks and after an exhausting go it was not getting any easier. I got him to fall asleep in his own bed at bedtime after sitting with him for at least an hour.
He still woke as frequently however it would take another hour of sitting in his room in the middle of the night till he fell back asleep. I would go back to my bed tuck myself in and it would be his next wake up time. It was exhausting, frustrating and self defeating. So we quit, co sleeping may be setting us up for big time trouble in the future (as everyone tells me) but it is the only way I can get a solid night of Broken sleep verses a night of no sleep.

All I hope is that like everything with children that one day this too shall pass, my boy will sleep through the night and in his own bed. I just don't want my 16 year old boy to come in to my room with his girlfriend asking if they can crash with me! haha
In all honesty though I know there will be times when my babies are teenagers or young adults and I will wish that the biggest worry I have would be "will my baby sleep through the night." So I will cherish the simple things even if I am perpetually sleep deprived!

Halloween 2010

2010-11-01T16:22:00.003-04:00

Well it was the first Halloween in many years that we had a white Halloween! Yes it snowed something like 5 inches the night before and it did not melt for Halloween!
It was a cold one however the kids had fun!
We made it out to about 7 houses before the kids had had enough! Between the costumes, the cold and the spooky decorations the kids were overwhelmed pretty quickly.

That being said our daycare party was a big success. The kids loved the monster bash dance and the pumpkin frame crafts. They also loved the monster pizza's and the veggies dipped in slime. For dessert we had daddy long leg cupcakes.
All in all my hard work paid off and I was glad the kids had fun!

Brooklyn was a princess and Brycen was a frog prince!

Full Moon's Make kids HAIRY!!!

2010-10-20T21:15:00.002-04:00

A look at our Fall

2010-10-14T17:23:00.003-04:00

God Bless the broken Road that lead me straight to you!

2010-10-11T13:04:00.003-04:00

Happy 2nd anniversary Lover!
I know our journey together hasn't always been easy, but I know as we grow and as our lives go on we strengthen our bond, we continue to raise our children in love and awareness and our love grows deeper each day. I love you very much my man, you are an amazing man and father and without you there would be no us!!! xoxo together forever in love and happiness!

Thanksgiving!

2010-10-09T21:56:00.003-04:00

Thanksgiving is such a special holiday because it reminds us of all the things in our life that we are thankful for. In the hustle and bustle of life it is easy to lose sight of all things we have in every given moment from our health, to our family, to the roof over our head and the food we have. It is about cherishing these things that mean so much to us.
I love my family and I am so thankful for the reminder of all that I have to be thankful for!
xoxo

Asthma

2010-09-29T18:21:00.002-04:00

Last night I experienced one of the many scary experiences a parent goes through. Brycen woke up in the wee hours of the night with shortness of breath, wheezing, coughing and a very fast pulse and heartbeat!

I spent 3 hours trying to regulate his breathing with his inhalers that he has been given when he gets a cough and sitting in the bathroom full of steam but nothing worked.

So off to CHEO we went. Luckily the wait wasn't horrific we were seen almost instantly then monitored the rest of the time along with plenty of breathing treatments and oral steroids.

We spent the day vegging and resuming the extensive puffer/steroid regimen for the day. Off to the asthma specialist tomorrow.

Thank God my boy is ok!!

My baby bro ties the knot!!

2010-09-25T09:12:00.002-04:00

I am so happy for my little brother. You have come a long way Mikey! I am so overjoyed for how your life has turned out so far. I am happy you have met the girl of your dreams and soul mate. I am thrilled to welcome Giulia into our family. We love you guys! xoxo

Out of the mouths of my babe

2010-09-22T21:25:00.001-04:00

Brooklyn: "Mommy how did you build me??!!""
Mom: I didnt build you baby you grew inside of me when I was pregnant with you!
PRICELESS!!

My how time flies!!

2010-09-21T14:03:00.004-04:00

Some days I catches me off guard and I am reminded how big my babies are getting. Brooklyn is 3 years 4 months and Brycen is 17 months.

Brooklyn you have started nursery school and you didn't even cry on your first day. You are officially a little girl now. You love to sing and dance mostly to Christmas music! You are shy at first but full of personality once warmed up! You love to paint and draw and have plastered our walls with your art work. You are very independent and loves to do anything and everything for yourself. This a great trait I hope it stays with you forever! You are stubborn and determined, free spirited and bossy.You are also very kind hearted, compassionate and caring and you are so very special too us!!

Brycen where has the time gone, you are busy as a bee and you love to climb up everything. Your favorite thing is tables, tv's, and cupboards. (Yes you my be a tad gutsy) You have about a dozen words and even less teeth (7) you are stubborn and determined, you are feisty and very very klutzy, you are sweet and snuggly. You are most definitely still a momma's boy! You are growing up so fast little man, we love you so very very much!

1st day of Nursery School

2010-09-15T17:10:00.002-04:00

Brooklyn had a great first day of Nursery School! She painted and cut with Scissors! Her teacher Carrie is very nice! Brooklyn didn't even cry at drop off! Way too go my big beautiful Boo Bear! Love you

Back to school!

2010-09-09T08:26:00.003-04:00

September is really a bittersweet time! The kids go back to school, the leaves begin to change, the crock pot comes out of hiding and just the whole change of seasons is refreshing! So as exciting as it is it is sad too, it is the starts of fall which is imminent of winter (BOO!) It is the end of summer, for us that means no more trailer...it really is so sad!
I think next year fall is really going to hurt because Brooklyn will be officially entering school!

Bye Bye SUMMER Hello FALL!

Out of the mouths of my babes

2010-09-02T17:12:00.003-04:00

Brooklyn: 3 years old

1. What is something mommy always says to you?
No way Brooklyn!

2. What makes your mom happy?
Beautiful stuff!

3. What makes your mom sad?
Well,when I'm not nice!

4. How does your mom make you laugh?
by tickling my belly!

5. What was your mom like as a child?
She had lots of toys cause I got them all now!

6. How old is your mom?
2

7. How tall is your mommy?
huge!

We need prayers!

2010-08-27T22:38:00.003-04:00

Nonno and Nonna are not well! Nonno is in the hospital (he fainted) and Nonna just got out of the hospital for a blood clot. Dad just had surgery to remove a hernia. Ugh it has been a long week and a stressful one at that.
Nonna and Nonno you both mean the world to me, you are a very pivotal part of my existence. The day we lose you will be a very sad day in our lives. You have been amazing grandparents and as much as I do not visit as much as I know I should that doesn't mean you aren't always in my mind, my heart and my thoughts!

Mommy and Brycen and Brooklyn get sick

2010-08-23T15:12:00.005-04:00

and it sucks we both have high fevers and aches and pains and crabbiness! We both went to the doctor and were given a prescription of rest,fluids and lots of advil and tylenol! Poor mommy, poor boy!!

UPDATED

Well about an hour after our swabs came back positive for strep Brooklyn started running a fever. So I ran around informing parents to come get their kids (yes I was working...well dosed on many pain killers) trying to find someone to pick up mine and Brycen's prescription (we are down to one vehicle now and Jeff was at work) Working out a way to get Brooklyn to the clinic before it closed so she could get her prescription. Anyway after all that the antibiotic make Brooklyn nauseous and puke. Brycen who normally is a fight to get to take meds in an even bigger fight to take the prescription. Anyway parenthood is a trip...today not a fun one. I have never in my life been so worried,helpless, scared, exhausted, paniced, short tempered and impatient. It is so hard to love to little people that you have no control over (body/heath wise)

All I can say is thanks Mom for being there to help me get through this, I know you had no one when I was a kid. Thank you Jeff you are such a great team player, you took care of me and are always an amazing player when we get in a situation. thanks for manning up and being such a great daddy to our babies!

*** Man I just caught Brooklyn trying to give Brycen baby Tylenol drops and he was a receptive as a baby bird looking for a worm. Soooooo I tested the theory and had her give him the dose...little stinker took it without a fight. STINKER!

Summer Loving had me a blast...Summer loving happened sooo fast!

2010-08-12T08:45:00.002-04:00

Trip to Mont Cascades Water Park

2010-07-26T13:26:00.003-04:00

Trip to Papanack Zoo!

2010-07-26T13:19:00.001-04:00

Thoughts on turning 30 cont....

2010-07-14T15:01:00.003-04:00

Well Now that I turned 30 I must admit it isn't as bad as I was expecting. I sure had a nice party and bday dinner so i was made to feel very special!
I am so very grateful for my special husband, family and friends. Thanks for making a spring chicken feel good guys! mwah mwah mwah!

Thoughts on turning 30!

2010-07-08T13:02:00.002-04:00

So my birthday is in 5 days to be exact! I will be 30 years old! Can you believe it...30 already!
Saying goodbye to your 20's and hello to your 30's is so very bittersweet. I know age is just a number and you are only as young as you feel but as Deanna Carter sings it I still remember when 30 was old. 30 means you are most definitly an adult, no more caught between girl and a woman. You are to have your shit together, your head on straight ect ect ect.

When I look at all that I have accomplished in my 30 years I am were I wanted to be:
::Happily married
::2 beautiful children
::a house that we call our own
::a career that pays my bills and that keeps me home with the babes

There are still things I plan on doing
::Travel
::Buying an RV or a big motor home to travel the world in
::Upgrade the house to a single family home
::Enjoying my children grow up and celebrating all the special milestones through my tears and saying all the while "where has the time gone?"
::Enjoying my grand babies (I am stopping now as this is going to far into the future)
All in all at least as I turn 30 I am going into it happy at the place I am in and feeling as though I have accomplished the things I wanted to have done by 30 however it is still hard to let go of the 20's and the vibrant youth that I have attached to those numbers.

Life is so full of lessons, I have learned so many. I wish I could bottle them up and take them back to the awkward unhappy teenager I once was and tell her that in the big scheme of things, it wont matter that I hate my hair, that it isn't worth sweating over the boy I love in that moment doesn't care the way I do, that I should enjoy being 10,13,16,19 ect as you only will have one year to be that age. Dont grow up to fast, dont rush those first because you only get them once and once they are gone they are gone forever. Enjoy it all because life will go by even when you are planning for it. So dont try to be perfect, just try to be you and to enjoy the small things as really that is all there is to life.

So we bought a trailer

2010-07-07T14:37:00.003-04:00

Only a pop up trailer like in my fondest childhood memories but it works and it is paid for!
We have been up twice now and we have all had a blast. As soon as I remember to take my camera out during the day and not only in the evening when much to much alcohol has been consumed, I will post pictures!
I guess we can add this to some of our favorite summer things to do!!

Pictures to come!

This is hiliarious and pretty much sums up my life!

2010-06-24T10:55:00.002-04:00

Why Having a Toddler is
Like Being at a Frat Party*

*That one frat party I've ever been to, having gone to a Very Serious Arts College.

10. There are half-full, brightly-colored plastic cups on the floor in every room. Three are in the bathtub.

9. There's always that one girl, bawling her eyes out in a corner.

8. It's best not to assume that the person closest to you has any control over their digestive function.

7. You sneak off to the bathroom knowing that as soon as you sit down, someone's going to start banging on the door.

6. Probably 80% of the stains on the furniture contain DNA.

5. You've got someone in your face at 3 a.m. looking for a drink.

4. There's definitely going to be a fight.

3. You're not sure whether anything you're doing is right, you just hope it won't get you arrested.

2. There are crumpled-up underpants everywhere.

1. You wake up wondering exactly how and when the person in bed with you got there.

Dog days of Summer!

2010-06-18T13:57:00.002-04:00

What I love about summer

:: Cookouts with friends and family
:: wearing next to nothing outside and not being cold
:: The tan
:: Fun in the sun
:: All the fresh air and being out of the house
:: The freedom and fun
:: Drinks on the deck
:: Campfires/camping
:: The cottage
:: Fishing/walking/rollerblading
:: Stays light later
:: Thunderstorms

Oh I wish it was summer forever!!

Wordless Wednesday!

2010-06-16T13:38:00.005-04:00

14 months already!

2010-06-16T13:16:00.003-04:00

Holy cow I cant believe it!

You are growing like a bad weed!
You are climbing everything, the couches, the chairs, the tables...you are insanely busy!
You know most of your animal sounds, dog says woof, duck says quack, cow says moo, ect!
You have 4.5 teeth and are working on the other 3 eye teeth!
You still wake up to come and sleep with me...every single night! Daddy has been out of a bed for 14 months buddy!
You are going to be T-R-O-U-B-L-E!!
You are determined like I have never seen in a child. I pray you put that to good use!
You are stubborn as is your sister, and you have a mind of your own!
You love to cuddle and give hugs
You love dirt, sand and water...preferably all together.
You hate being told No or to stop in fact WHEN YOU HEAR THAT YOU INSIST ON DOING IT ANYWAY!
We love you little man!

Trip down memory lane!

2010-06-14T20:38:00.003-04:00

Last night I realized that in one month I will be 3-0! OMG! That lead me to start thinking about how much both my kids have grown in a year. I began to rewatch video footage we have of both the kids (babies) and it really hit me how quickly they grow up. Brooklyn most definitely is a little girl now not the little toddler singing "tinkle tinkle wittle tar" to her new born baby brother. She can now say grammy not nammy and she can actually wish auntie Jody Happy birthday instead of saying "Happy dody!" and Brycen is surely the bruiser toddler, running around, climbing and chasing his sister. No more helpless baby cooing at his mommy.
Children grow up so fast and it is so bittersweet because those moments are gone forever stolen by time never to return which is sad yet necessary obviously. I cried a little tear last night reminiscing on those days. I have spent everyday of their life with them and I still can't figure out where the time has gone!
Dont blink!

Just Because!!

2010-06-06T20:50:00.002-04:00

Cottage loving!!!

2010-06-01T17:49:00.002-04:00

JUST A MOM?

2010-06-01T12:43:00.001-04:00

Found this little read and I thought it was very appropriate!!!

A woman, renewing her driver's license at the County Clerk 's office,
was asked by the woman recorder to state her occupation.

She hesitated, uncertain how to classify herself.

'What I mean is, ' explained the recorder,
'do you have a job or are you just a ...?'

'Of course I have a job,' snapped the woman.

'I'm a Mom.'

'We don't list 'Mom' as an occupation,
'housewife' covers it,'
Said the recorder emphatically.

I forgot all about her story until one day I found myself
in the same situation, this time at our own Town Hall.
The Clerk was obviously a career woman, poised,
efficient, and possessed of a high sounding title like,
'Official Interrogator' or 'Town Registrar.'

'What is your occupation?' she probed.

What made me say it? I do not know.
The words simply popped out.
'I'm a Research Associate in the field of
Child Development and Human Relations.'

The clerk paused, ball-point pen frozen in m midair and
looked up as though she had not heard right.

I repeated the title slowly emphasizing the most significant words.
Then I stared with wonder as my pronouncement was written,
in bold, black ink on the official questionnaire.

'Might I ask,' said the clerk with new interest,
'just what you do in your field?'

Coolly, without any trace of fluster in my voice,
I heard myself reply,
'I have a continuing program of research,
(what mother doesn't)
In the laboratory and in the field,
(normally I would have said indoors and out).
I'm working for my Masters, (first the Lord and then the whole family)
and already have four credits (all daughters).
Of course, the job is one of the most demanding in the humanities,
(any mother care to disagree?)
and I often work 14 hours a day, (24 is more like it).
But the job is more challenging than most run-of-the-mill careers
and the rewards are more of a satisfaction rather than just money.'

There was an increasing note of respect in the clerk's voice as she
completed the form, stood up, and personally ushered me to the door.

As I drove into our driveway, buoyed up by my glamorous new career,
I was greeted by my lab assistants -- ages 13, 7, and 3.
Upstairs I could hear our new experimental model,
(a 6 month old baby) in the child development program,
testing out a new vocal pattern.
I felt I had scored a beat on bureaucracy!
And I had gone on the official records as someone more
distinguished and indispensable to mankind than 'just another Mom.'
Motherhood!

What a glorious career!
Especially when there's a title on the door.

A little about us

2010-05-28T07:24:00.005-04:00

Brooklyn is a diva, she loves shoes, dresses and always has her purse on her arm. Funny enough she takes her heels, dresses and purse right into the sandbox and to her the dirtier the better.
She is stubborn, moody, and overly dramatic (I hope this is an age thing) She is also compassionate, caring and loving when the mood hits her.

Brycen is all boy, he is busy busy busy. He started walking at 10 months and has been running ever since. He loves to climb the chairs, the sofa, the table everything. He has no fear and he has determination and persistence that I have never seen in a child. He is a total bruiser all the time yet he is so sweet and cuddly too. All day he runs and plays and climbs but every 30 minutes or so he stops, runs to my leg and gives it a big hug and then he is off again.

Time Flies!

2010-05-26T22:23:00.002-04:00

And suddenly a child is born,
A gift from God to you.
She learns to walk, she learns to talk,
And suddenly -
She's two.
As years go by, a young girl grows,
All bright, alert, alive,
She starts to learn to read and write,
And suddenly -
She's five.
And all the time it seems to be,
She hardly changes when,
She's caught with Mommy's high heels on,
And suddenly -
She's ten.
And through it all, you watch this child,
The years have gently flown,
She starts to turn to wave goodbye,
And suddenly -
She's grown.

Brooklyn's 3rd bday Party

2010-05-24T07:57:00.006-04:00

JUST CAUSE!

2010-05-19T21:00:00.001-04:00

Motherhood!

2010-05-15T15:37:00.001-04:00

"Making the decision to have a child is
momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around
outside your body." ~Elizabeth Stone

The eve of HER birth!

2010-05-12T12:47:00.004-04:00

Well it was 3 years ago today that I was going to be a mommy in the next 24 hours. My how life has changed. You have brought so much joy, happiness, growth and love to this family my girl! Life would never be as pleasurable, exciting, dramatic, beautiful and fun without you! You are my sunshine girl and we love you.

What is my big girl doing now.....?
;; I think the real question is what aren't you doing?
;; You can speak in full sentences, you can articulate all your needs, you can sing full songs and give orders ;-)
;; You have friends and birthday parties to attend, and you love being surrounded by buddies.
;; You can get dressed and undressed, you can put your shoes on and zip up your coat.
;; You are independent, strong willed, determined, a total free spirit, you are caring, compassionate and very maternal.
;; You are a leader and love to lead packs or story time ;-)
;; You are a diva, you love clothes and shoes and have asked me why I don't wear heels so you can try them on.
;; You love water and nature and being outdoors.
;; You love to sing at the top of your lungs, all though you sing best when you think no one is actually listening to you.
;; You love ice cream, lollipops and bubblegum.
;; You are smart, inquisitive and bright. I am not biased either, I work with so many kids your age and I have definitely compared!

You are growing up so fast my girl! You are a blessing and a treasure.
Mommy, daddy and Brycen love you!!!!
Happy 3rd birthday baby!!!

Happy Mother's Day to me!!!

2010-05-09T12:27:00.003-04:00

A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow, but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"

"Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."

The child further inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy."

God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."

Again the child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"

God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak."

"And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"

God said, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray."

"Who will protect me?"

God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking it's life."

"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."

God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you."

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."

"You will simply call her, 'Mom.'"

What are we doing now....?

2010-05-07T21:15:00.004-04:00

Well it is spring and that brings warm weather. Whoo hoo so we have been
:: playing in the parks around the house
;; going on nature walks and scavenger hunts
;; playing with sidewalk chalk
;; playing with our friends on the play structure
;; having tea parties with friends
;; playing in the sandbox
;; blowing bubbles
;; having picnics
;; picking flowers specially dandelions :-)

We are definitely enjoying the season!!!

when you are older....

2010-04-29T16:58:00.005-04:00

Im going to remind you of

* how much you liked to kiss and hug your momma

* how much you liked to run around naked

* how much you loved to splash in the bath tub

* how much you loved to tell me stories about your day, your dreams, your thoughts, the bugs, your lunch, the dirt...pretty much everything!

* how dandelions use to be your favorite flower.

* how dressing yourself always meant your socks always consisted of a sock from 2 different pairs.

* how much it made your day to eat at Macdonald's, to get a treat after dinner, to go for a car ride.

* how your best friend was your brother/sister!

* how much fun you had just being you!

* how often you use to tell your daddy that he is your hero!

* how much you needed me when you where hurt or sad!

* how I had my moments where I needed my space and I wanted to be alone and you guys were always at my feet and in my lap!

* how much I love having you both as my babies, how much I will always love you even when I am angry, frustrated or sad.

* how I will always be here for you, no matter what!

Budding personalities

2010-04-23T19:20:00.004-04:00

It is so funny to watch the difference in personalities emerging as each one of my precious babies grows.
Differences
:: Brycen is my social butterfly he will go up to any kid or adult he sees and usually start hugging them.
:: Brooklyn is the complete opposite, ever since the day she was born she has been finicky about people and who she is with. I remember as a baby she use to freak out when passed from person to person. She is definitely more reserved and more shy until she is comfortable with her surroundings and the people around her.
:: Brycen is scared of dogs....don't know why but he is. Brooklyn has no issues with any sort of animal.
:: Brooklyn does not like loud noises...never has! Brycen really could care less. LOL
:: Brycen is very cuddly, he loves to stop playing just to come over for cuddles.
:: Brooklyn is very maternal and motherly, she is always trying to help people.
:: Brycen loves books, he has always enjoyed sitting with a pile of books and looking at the pictures. Brooklyn has always been more inclined to rip the pages out and really could care less.
:: Brooklyn has an amazing eye for detail, she notices very minor things!!

Similarities
::Both of them are very independent and determined by nature.
Brooklyn today was determined to dress her whole body by herself from her panties to her zipper on her jacket. bless her heart, she did it all by herself. It was all on properly and she was even hell bound and determined to get her zipper done up and she did. You go girl!!!
Brycen is the same I remember when he was trying so hard to go from the army crawl to the regular crawl. He spent the day mastering it. That seems to be typical, I remember the day he figured out how to stand from sitting, no word of a lie he spent the rest of the day doing just that. He even woke up 8x that night and I swear it was just so he could continue practicing.
:: They both have a mischievous edge to them a.k.a shitheads :-)
:: Both of them are very smart and ahead of the average milestones. I am not bias it's true!

I love watching them grow and learn and change and become the people they are meant to be!

Love you guys!

Brycen's 1st Birthday PARTY!

2010-04-18T19:56:00.002-04:00

Bless her heart!!

2010-04-18T19:49:00.002-04:00

Well Brooklyn had her first real birthday party to go to yesterday. it was for her "best friend" Kassia's 3rd bday and it was at Gym Tale. Mommy screwed up the time and thought it was from 1-3 we showed up at 12:50 and find out it is ending in 10 minutes. I was so worried Brooklyn would be bummed so we quickly found Kassia. They chased each other through the slides for 15 minutes then loot bags were handed out. Brooklyn was in her glory. We went home! I asked Brooklyn if she had fun at her first party and she said "Yes mommy it was so much fun!" LOL she never knew the difference hahahaha!!!

Happy Birthday to my baby boy!

2010-04-15T16:45:00.004-04:00

It is almost 3 years to the day I was mourning the eve of my big girls first birthday and now I am doing it for my little man. Where has the time gone?! I remember being told about time lying once you have children but I didn't understand the full extent of that saying. Now I understand it and it is sad to think that soon my babies will be o to school and then of to college, then parents (hopefully) all in a blink of an eye. It is a blessing and a joy to have babies and it is bittersweet how quickly they grow.

At 1
::Is about 27 lbs
::LOVES to feed himself with a spoon and bowl and still loves to eat.
::Is walking and almost running.
::He loves music and dancing
::He is very bright, he can bring me things on command ie. his sippy cup, a spoon ect.
::Can quack like a duck, moo like a cow, and woof like a dog!
::Claps to pattycake"
::Loves to cuddle with just about anyone
::Loves momma cuddles!
::SMILES and LAUGHS all the time !
::Loves to splash in water until it is gone! (yes, it is a very wet bath time)
Seriously we love love love this little guy.

My beautiful BIG girl!

2010-04-14T14:03:00.002-04:00

Isn't she a beauty!!!!!

Where has the time gone....

2010-04-13T13:42:00.002-04:00

Seriously it feels like only yesterday I was mourning the loss of my baby girl as she entered into toddler hood and now I am doing it with my baby boy. I have been so blessed with 2 amazing children, who are healthy and for the most part happy. I cant believe that 1 year ago today I was walking the neighborhood trying to bring out my baby boy. Now my baby boy is walking the neighborhood. *SNIFF SNIFF*
We love you Brycen boy, you have blended into this family so perfectly and we couldn't imagine life without you. Mommy, daddy and Brooklyn love you bubbs!!! xoxo

Bye bye crawling baby hello big boy walking!

2010-04-07T19:35:00.003-04:00

Easter

2010-04-04T21:17:00.004-04:00

What a great day! The kids had a blast on their Easter egg hunts, brunch with grammy and aunt Jody was excellent and the weather was perfect for playing outside. We really couldn't of asked for a better day. I am so blessed!

Slacking off!

2010-04-01T13:02:00.002-04:00

I know I know I have been slacking off. It is the weather that's causing this, it has been so gorgeous this year. We have temps in the 20's and this weekend for Easter it will hit 26. I love Spring! Especially a warm perfect summer spring.
It has been a busy week with painting egg's and doing our Easter Crafts and getting out all the summer stuff from the shed!! Brooklyn wakes up every morning asking if it is summer yet! She is really looking forward to swimming in her little pool.
Just for a moment I am reminded one year ago today I was still pregnant and I had and almost 2 year old. Now i have an almost 1 year old and a almost 3 year old. Wow, time flies when you are busy making plans!!!

Pictures of the kids loving the weather to come!!!

11 months oh my!

2010-03-24T08:23:00.002-04:00

Ya I am behind...a weeks worth of sickness has done that to me.

In one month my boy will be 1 can you imagine that. Where did this year go. It has been full of fun, love, laughter, tears, milestones and hope.
After 11 months with you Brycen it is hard to imagine what life was like without you here with us.
:: The boy loves books, coloring,gadgets, and eating everything off the floor from crayons to paper pieces to dust bunnies oeww!
:: He is still cruising the furniture, and has taken steps but has not started walking yet.
:: He can stand unassisted and dance in place...very funny to watch!
:: He adores his sister...he cant get enough of her and he sure is a momma's boy. That is not to say he doesn't love his dad, because he sure loves to play with him.
:: He is still a crappy sleeper and some how we managed to end up a co sleeping family...which is not ideal for me because I sleep in silly positions but at least I sleep.
:: Brycen has 4 teeth as of now and he only started teething at 10 months!
:: Brycen is eating all of our food and his favorites are steak, potatoes, pasta and cheese!

Happy 11 months wee man we love you and hope you have enjoyed your time with us as much as we have enjoyed our time with you.

and then there was 4.....

2010-03-24T08:20:00.000-04:00

Teeth that is! The other top one has cut!
Now if I could just get some pics without him freaking out for the camera.
Which reminds me.....this boy is obsessed with gadgets from phones, to computers, to cameras. Anything with buttons he needs to have!

Sugar Bush!

2010-03-20T21:45:00.004-04:00

Last weekend before the sickness hit we went to Stanley's Sugar Bush with Ben and Christine, Josh and Amanda and all the kids. It seems to be becoming a tradition as we did this last year as well. The kids had a blast, the pancake breaky is good and it seems very fitting for the season!

Good and Bad!

2010-03-19T20:48:00.001-04:00

Bad: The kids aren't well enough for it to be a typical Friday!
Good: Both of the kids slept in till 7:30 this morning and we didn't have to wake up to the alarm.

Bad: Daddy had to go to work and was gone all day.
Good: Well it's money right!!!!

Bad and Good: Both kids vegged on the couch all day, giving me plenty of snuggles which is rare...from Miss.B.

Bad: We didn't get to enjoy the beautiful weather this week as both kids were to sick to get out of the house/
Good: More great weather is on it's way and we will enjoy it then!

Good: Both of my babes are on the mend, eating slightly and drinking regularly. The vomiting is gone, the poops are going and there energy is returning a little each day!
Bad: I guess it takes my girl to be seriously ill in order for her to cuddle and veg!!

Rotavirus stinks....

2010-03-18T17:27:00.002-04:00

Literally! My poor babies have been so so sick. We are going on day 4 and we have only just started on the mend. We have been to the hospital 3x in these 4 days, we have changed countless poopy diapers and pants we have cleaned up more vomit and slept on the floor in Brooklyn's room and in the living room enduring many sleepless nights. All in the name of love I tell you, but it hasn't pretty or fun. It has been stressful, nerve racking and down right scary. All I know for sure is I pray my babies never ever have to go through that again.

Here we go again....

2010-03-15T17:02:00.002-04:00

Dam stomach flu get away from my family. ugh!