This to Shall pass!

I hope! That's what I always tell myself!!! I hope it happens sooner then later. In case you all forget this is all in regards to bedtime drama post! Yep she still hasn't given it up.


In the meantime.......

Bed Time DRAMA!

 Last Sunday I put Brooklyn to bed like usual, and went into Brycen's room to put him to bed. Shortly after I hear Miss B whimpering, I go in to check on her and her towel has fallen from the back of her door. Ok I pick it up, put it back, no big deal. Back to bed she goes. I go back to Brycen's room to finish putting him to bed when I hear a loud bang (from brooklyn's room) and her screaming this terrifiying scream. My heart jumps to my throat I run in to save her from what I thought was her bookshelf on top of her. Her humidifier had fallen all by itself out of the closet onto the floor. (WTH) I was shaken, she was shaken, so I brought her into Brycen's rocker and we rocked him to sleep. Two hours later my girl still would not go back to her bed to sleep and woke every 1/2 hour after to have one of us sleep with her.

Man oh man we are still going crazy with the bed time drama. We have tried everything to get her to go back to sleep on her own like she once use too but it feels like it is nothing more then a mere memory. She kicks, she screams, she cries, she beggs, she pleads. She will not go to bed without us sleeping with her. Jeff has taken up a pretty permant space on her floor each night because not only is going to sleep an issue every time she wakes in the night she needs us to be there for her to go back to sleep. We haven't even gotten Brycen to sleep through the night and now they are both pulling this. Ugh and nap time is no easier.

Tuesday night after Brooklyn waking up 4 times between 9 and 11:30pm and Brycen who was up for the darn day at 230am we looked at each other listening to out 2 screaming children and god only knows the thought each one of us was thinking. It wasn't pretty that's for sure. 

Today we made progress, after the same song and dance I told her she could just play in her room. I turned on all lights and she played quietly till she fell asleep.
At bedtime tonight, she is in her bed right now, along, with all her lights on, her door open wide and she is playing with her dollhouse. It is a step. An itty bitty baby step because yesterday this would not of worked.
Please help us get through this! We are all so darn sleep deprived!

Out of the mouths of babes!

So Brycen has been sick so I decided to bring him to the doctors. Brooklyn says to me when we get home "mom I thought you were going to leave Brycen at the doctors cause he is sick?" LOL umm no hunny that's not what we do!

See that!!

Look closely.....

My baby girl has lost that baby girl look. That baby innocence. She is looking more and more like a big kid every day.

She is also begining to act like a big girl too.

*Now she can go to the bathroom all by herself, she even remembers to wash her hands and flush the toilet.

*She can put her clothes on all by herself and get her coat and boots on.

*She can ask for everything she wants, she can tell me everything that is on her mind, she has begun expressing her feelings ie. Mommy I dont like you (when I make her clean up her mess)

* She can occupy herself without getting into things she shouldn't for at least 15 minutes.

*She can help herself to snacks in the pantry.

*She can clean up her mess, bring things to me when asked and she helps me with things I ask her to help with.

*I have also noticed the terrible 2 tantrums have dissapeared for the most part.

She is growing up every day and I love her and am enjoying her to bits. I must say I most definitely have the best, coolest, funniest, prettiest, most giving, sharing, compassionate, brilliant daughter in the whole wide world. I have been blessed!

Some things I want my babies to know

I want you to need me, but I want you to stand on your own two feet.

I want to hold you close, but not so close that you can't spread your wings.

I want to be an important factor in your life, but don't ever let me come in the way of your highest aspirations.

I want to show you everything, but you must discover the world in your own unique way.

I want you to hold my hand, but you need to know when to let go and trust your own strength.

I want to influence your tastes, but you must always march to your own drum-beat.

I want you to care what I think about your choices, but your journey will be your own.

I want you to look up to me, but please reach higher than I did.

I want your future to be perfect, but learn to be content - no matter what life throws at you.

I want you to know your dad and I love you more than anything else in the world; And we hope you are surrounded by love all of your days.

See this face.....

This is what I get to wake up to every morning. Isn't it priceless! Yes this is the same face that looks at me at 2am wanting to play. How can I not love this face!

Mwah!

3/4 of a year!

Not only am I cute but I am a stinker too!!!
We have a 9 monther here!

*He still has NO teeth

*Eats ANY mashed foods or small finger foods including some weird things...pickles, olives (thanks to his sister, and asparagus.

*Is crawling everywhere, but his favorite thing to chase is his sister.

*Can pull up onto furniture and cruising across it.

*Lights up when you call his name

*Loves playing peek a boo

*Kicks wildly when we try to get him dressed or undressed!

*He loves the bath

*Favorite foods include cheese and pasta.

*Favorite thing to do, chase us around the house and get himself into T-R-O-U-B-L-E!

Mommy Moments!

Last night I went in to tuck in Brooklyn as I always do and she had stripped herself naked. I tried to redress her without waking her but woke her. As I am dressing her in her jammies she looks up with groggy eyes and says "Mommy you make my heart happy!" awwww my heart melted!!

I am Superwoman...here me ROAR!

Today my dear friend asked me if I would do a pump class at the gym. I thought sure why not. It was part of my resolution  to get healthy anyway. I half heartedly agreed, I made a million excuses why this could never become a routine (cost,daycare, time)

Well I did that class and it awakened a part of me I thought had left. It made me feel happy and light and free. It brought a new sence inspiration and unstifled my creativity and my passion. It reminded me of a time I felt alive and well; myself.

I went through that whole class with a goofy ole grin on my face, feeling my muscles move for the first time in ages, feeling my heart pump loudly, connecting with my body.  Remembering all the happy times I have had in these classes, remembering how alive physical activity makes me feel, reminiscing of how my life use to be. I finally felt at home, in my element. I finally felt the joy and happiness my current life has been missing.

Everyone says dont lose yourself when you become a mother and I did. I lost what makes me happy (granted my kids do but this kinda happiness is for me) For the first time in years I feel euphoric and high of my own endorphines. I am hooked, I am so excited, this is what will pull me out of this funk I have been in. My drug of choice is exercise. Granted I still have those worries of cost and daycare...but mainly cost) Hmmmm now to justify spending $60 a month on myself?????

I AM WOMAN, HEAR ME ROAR!

These are the loves of my life

Before I was a Mom
I never tripped over toys or forgot words to a lullaby.
I didn't worry whether or not my plants were poisonous.
I never thought about immunizations.

Before I was a Mom - I had never been puked on.
Pooped on.
Chewed on.
Peed on.
I had complete control of my mind and my thoughts.
I slept all night.

Before I was a Mom
I never held down a screaming child so doctors could do tests.
Or give shots.
I never looked into teary eyes and cried.
I never got gloriously happy over a simple grin.
I never sat up late hours at night watching a baby sleep.

Before I was a Mom
I never held a sleeping baby just because I didn't want to put him
down.
I never felt my heart break into a million pieces when I couldn't stop
the hurt.
I never knew that something so small could affect my life so much.
I never knew that I could love someone so much.
I never knew I would love being a Mom.

Before I was a Mom -
I didn't know the feeling of having my heart outside my body.
I didn't know how special it could feel to nurse a hungry baby.
I didn't know that bond between a mother and her child.
I didn't know that something so small could make me feel so important
and happy.

Before I was a Mom
I had never gotten up in the middle of the night every 10 minutes to
make sure all was okay.
I had never known the warmth, the joy, the love, the heartache, the
wonderment or the satisfaction of being a Mom.
I didn't know I was capable of feeling so much, before I was a Mom.

 

So it begins

Man oh man my baby is cruising between furniture. He is taking steps ugh! It was just a matter of weeks that Brooklyn went from cruising to walking. We will see if he is the same.

I remember it all so clearly my sweet innocent baby girl became a handful once she figured out she was her own little being. I can I can kiss my baby boy good bye...it is just a matter of time before he figures out his own independence. 

A Year in Review

January
Brooklyn moves into a big girl bed and sleeps in it the whole night, never falls out and never made a fuss about it.

February

We saw Elmo live at the Corel center

March
and Barney at the Sportsplex. This was as exciting as seeing the New Kids when I was 10. I even cried I was so happy she got to see the one character she watched every time the tv came on. (Doesn't she look thrilled...lol I was more excited then she was)

April
My belly was busting and then out popped our beautiful baby boy.

May
Brooklyn turns 2! My baby is a big girl now!

June
We are finally adjusting to life with 2. Yes it took adjusting...everything takes more time now.

July 
Brooklyn is fully potty trained whoo hoo! Brooklyn catches her first fish with Nonno at the cottage.

August 
Brycen learns to sit up and this is the beginning of what is to come.

September
Another tradition is born....we decided apple picking would be our new tradition. The rest of the month was filled with yummy apple baking. Apple sauce, apple crisp, apple pie yum!

October 
We had a fantastic weekend at the cottage full of much needed rest and relaxation.

November
Brooklyn starts preschool and she loves it, Brycen is baptized and the crawling begins.

December
Enjoying our little family each and every second! Can you believe a year has gone by!

The good the bad and the ugly about the New Year!

The New Year always brings me a sense of newness and change. I always feel motivated to do something good (whatever this may be) I seek to better myself and to come up with new goals and essentially work towards a better ME! The problem always is not knowing where to begin, becoming overwhelmed with it all and then quitting.

So here are some things I have in mind as to what the new ME looks like
* Getting healthy - eating better and excersing a little more frequently.
*Getting a life - I have decided we need to start doing more things as a family besides just going to the grocery store and walmart. We need more cheap fun!
* Develop a hobby- I want to find a passion, something that brings me great joy (so far blogging is my favorite as is reading trashy vampire novels)
*Create more fun and excitement....whatever that entails! Maybe having people over more regularly, game nights and more couple fun!