A day on the farm with my boy!!!

Trailer Life

Dirty and loving it!!!!!

Brooklyn is 5!!!!

Interview with my 5 year old: What your favorite color? Pink Who is your best friend? Emily and Ashlynn What is your favorite thing about being five? Going to school Where is your favorite place to go? Dollar store/grammy's house What do you want to be when you grow up? Nail polish girl Your favorite food? Carrots/dip What is your favorite thing to learn about? counting What is your favorite thing to do? Arts and crafts What is your favorite thing to play? babies/pretend house If you could go anywhere where would it be? Dominican republic What makes your happy? Blue skies/Maverick/Family What makes you sad? When friends are unkind What is your favorite treat? chocolate and gum

My wish for me...

As parents we have some many hopes and wishes for our children in the present and in their future. It isnt very often the parent takes the time to think what they wish for themselves when raising there children. For myself I wish..... *To do my best to be kind, caring and loving...in all situations presented *To always try and put myself in your shoes so I can understand why it is you do, think or want something...from this place I hope i can at the very least understand. *To stand up for you. * To support you even when I may not see your perspective * To teach you what I believe will help you to be a good person. *To always help, assist and be on your team. *To allow you to grow up with independence, competence and self confidence that I have helped you to achieve and instil in you. *To understand as a mother at a certain point in your life you wont need me to be your mother...but a friend who will never let you down. I love you Brooklyn and Brycen...I may not be perfect or anywhere close to it, but I promise you I am doing my best and once you are parents you too will see how hard this role is and how much work, effort and love goes into it every moment of your lives.

A letter from a mother to her daughter!

Get the kleenex ready for this!!! "My dear girl, the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. If when we talk, I repeat the same thing a thousand times, don’t interrupt to say: “You said the same thing a minute ago”... Just listen, please. Try to remember the times when you were little and I would read the same story night after night until you would fall asleep. When I don’t want to take a bath, don’t be mad and don’t embarrass me. Remember when I had to run after you making excuses and trying to get you to take a shower when you were just a girl? When you see how ignorant I am when it comes to new technology, give me the time to learn and don’t look at me that way; remember, honey, I patiently taught you how to do many things like eating appropriately, getting dressed, combing your hair and dealing with life’s issues every day... the day you see I’m getting old, I ask you to please be patient, but most of all, try to understand what I’m going through. If I occasionaly lose track of what we’re talking about, give me the time to remember, and if I can’t, don’t be nervous, impatient or arrogant. Just know in your heart that the most important thing for me is to be with you. And when my old, tired legs don’t let me move as quickly as before, give me your hand the same way that I offered mine to you when you first walked. When those days come, don’t feel sad... just be with me, and understand me while I get to the end of my life with love. I’ll cherish and thank you for the gift of time and joy we shared. With a big smile and the huge love I’ve always had for you, I just want to say, I love you my darling daughter. "

Sieze the day!!!!

Since I became a parent, everyone is always saying enjoy them, they grow up fast, live in the moment ect and I truly try to take it to heart and enjoy the little moments. Everywhere I go, someone is telling me to seize the moment, raise my awareness, be happy, enjoy every second, etc, etc, etc.I know that this message is right and good. But, I have finally allowed myself to admit that it just always doesn't work for me. This reminder makes me stressed out and panicky. Especially during this phase of my life - while I'm raising young kids. So many moments when raising my young kids, I am unpresent, stressed out, over worked and not really conscious of the here and now period! Every once in awhile though, time stands still long enough for me to truly seize the moment. It's in those magical moments that I can truly cherish how blessed I am. Like when I actually stop what I'm doing and really look at Brooklyn. I notice how perfectly smooth her skin is and how perfect she really is. I notice the perfect curves of her little mouth and her beautiful blue eyes, and I breathe in her soft unique smell. In these moments, I see that her mouth is moving but I can't hear her because all I can think is -- This is the first time I've really seen Brooklyn all day, and my God -- she is so beautiful. Thank you! Or when I'm stuck in chronos time in the grocery line and I'm haggard and annoyed and angry at the slow check-out clerk and the never ending line. I look at my cart and I'm transported out of my own head space and suddenly I notice the piles of healthy food I feed my children to grow their bodies and minds and I remember that most of the world's mamas would kill for this opportunity. This chance to stand in a grocery line with enough money to pay. As I stare at my cart and my kids I am greatful for the abundance, the bounty and once again I say Thank you God, thank you universe.... Or when I am curled up in my cozy bed and I hear a soft voice say mom can we come in. Into my bed we all pile and they both drift off to sleep and in the stillness and the quiet I listen to them both breathing. For a moment, I think- I am so blessed, how did I ever get so lucky? Each night I go to bed surrounded by this love, this peace, this warmth. Thank you!!! These cherishable moments leave as fast as they come- but I have noted them. When life becomes hairy and hectic and crazy...it is those small moments that remind me it's all going to be alright and that makes the pain of the daily parenting climb worth it.

Food for thought!

Life isn't always fair, but it's still good.

When in doubt, just take the next small step.

Life is too short to waste time hating anyone.

Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends

and parents will. Stay in touch.

Pay off your credit cards every month.

You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

Cry with someone. It's more healing than crying alone.

It's OK to get angry with God. He can take it.

Save for retirement starting with your first paycheck.

When it comes to chocolate, resistance is futile.

Make peace with your past so it won't screw up the present.

It's OK to let your children see you cry.

Don't compare your life to others. You have no idea what their

journey is all about.

If a relationship has to be a secret, you shouldn't be in it.

Everything can change in the blink of an eye. But don't worry;

God never blinks.

Take a deep breath. It calms the mind.

Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful.

Whatever doesn't kill you really does make you stronger.

It's never too late to have a happy childhood. But the second

one is up to you and no one else

When it comes to going after what you love in life, don't take

no for an answer.

Burn the candles, use the nice sheets, wear the fancy

lingerie. Don't save it for a special occasion. Today is special.

Over prepare, then go with the flow.

Be eccentric now. Don't wait for old age to wear purple.

The most important sex organ is the brain.

No one is in charge of your happiness but you.

Frame every so-called disaster with these words 'In five

years, will this matter?'

Always choose life.

Forgive everyone everything.

What other people think of you is none of your business.

Time heals almost everything. Give time time.

However good or bad a situation is, it will change.

Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.

Believe in miracles.

God loves you because of who God is, not because of anything

you did or didn't do.

Don't audit life. Show up and make the most of it now.

Growing old beats the alternative -- dying young.

Your children get only one childhood.

All that truly matters in the end is that you loved.

Get outside every day. Miracles are waiting everywhere.

If we all threw our problems in a pile and saw everyone

else's, we'd grab ours back.

Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.

The best is yet to come...

No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.